This is me Living with Autism, life can have its ups's & down's. You can have good days, bad days, But on good days you feel really high & hyperactive imagination, creative, on your outlook perspective, on life. On way you see the world and not by no one telling you how to live your colourful rainbow world, by feeling, good in your self , and around other people, peers, individuals, but on bad, days, you can hit all time low, were you isolate, your self, you feel really lonely, inside depressed, upset but no emotion shows just anger, hate towards your self, & people around you , Self-harm , head-banging against a wall , or scraping your head across the floor & a stone spiky wall, chucking your self of the stairs having fits , meltdowns , when people touch you think that there actually burning you but there just calming you down , and having no understanding about little things in life , and self doubting your self if you said right thing in conversation , even thou the words are coming out and your speech is sounding okay to someone else , your then thinking should i said that always going into your head looking for answers, on thinking how change your perspective, so people can understand way you see the world, you could have 100's friends but everyday you feel as if you have no friends that understand, , you feel as if you don't have any friends, even though you have lots behind you who are genuine and that care , but it just doesn't feel that way to me on everyday life , but you try see the bigger picture , go out smiling and overcome the struggles , but on everyday life you feel as if your left out , you feel as if its hard to have conversation , if its not said in right context way , you feel as if there is no communication, on a conversation, and your then thinking are my boring that person on my topics , interests collections , so that makes you have bad day , but you just have to accept this who i am , i can keep fighting overcoming my goals , through out my life , and learn to accept my self and not let being Autistic defeat me , just embrace the beauty and uniqueness, for me to lead better mindful life.
My life has not been walk in park, i have had to overcome lot struggle in my life to get this far, on telling my story's .
i find it so hard to express out-loud , & communicate, with people, but from writing this tells others, and keep learning more about strategy's so i can have better life , and Climb because that's what helps me the most , and being surrounded by lovely beautiful people , because on the good days things feel amazing , on bad days , i think the worse of things i hurt my self , self-doubt on trying to interact , but what need learn is everyone cares , and keep fighting the demons , and everything will be sweet daisy's.
(Why fit in when you were born STANDOUT! Dr.sesuss)
