I sometimes wonder why?? and the meaning of the title conversation , because i try so hard to make conversation with friends , strangers about certain, topics interests and to me i sense they are not listening to me or acknowledging anything i am saying , and it really ticks , me off because i am trying so hard to do things in certain ways to be able to communicate over social media.
Or for that matter even in conversation Hmmm something isn't right there not listening to what i am talking about no point explaining things this is one dull conversation , as i am comfortable have more chats specific interests i get more sense out of my Autistic , friends than i do out of Neurotypicals they genuinely just don't understand us as human beings let along being amongst this society .
Reason being i will in light you into my world were i feel that this is what happens , to us all that Autistic , & that makes us feel isolated , on even having friends , but making friends , just as people do over social media , i am not sure if i will get lonely because there is much more things to keep me focused other than socializing , have films, music , climbing , running the things that will bring me happiness reading , writing , doing lists of names , of things i love and adore so i never forget them .
Jamie would did you do today ??
Me: I searched for colours on designing things looking for fabrics, on all kinds material for merchandise, and characters and listened to music Oh Bon Jovi is a great album .
Neurotypical: Oh not now Jamie ,
Me: Well you think you try, to communicate with people out there .
In all honesty, i think your best on your own regardless , on who's out there for you because no one wants listen and no one cares in what you have to say or talk about .
I am fine , with just not talking about your problems, now or anything in common for that matter because a Neurotypical will never understand Autistic's and that's truth .
The connection i have with Autistics , is unreal we talk from topic to topic and we are listening to each other and taking everything thing as for one's that adore us and love , us even friends family they try to understand and sometimes it can be to much because our minds , are always working on fast dial, and over thinking things anyalzing so in my eyes Conversation sucks,
Casual form of conversation that "breaks the ice well i am not sure what that means does it mean that she wants me to go brake up some ice !!
Well not really, because small talk" doesn't help introduce your self in shape of form what so ever
Best to say nothing if they are not listening to anything your saying in first place plus its difficult if you don't no how to read these things just Fine thanks SAY BYE !!
So true weather , i don't no anything about weather , outside other than its hot , sunny, cold , rain and windy other times i just say its great day .
Yes love sports, so would happy talk about all sorts sports still dont consider that small talk more case of a topic of interest .
Entertainment films, movies , tv-show's drama, thriller , horrors, action , comedy , indie disney , yes but no one really see's me and talks about them .
First time i meet someone on a given day , well what is casual conversation , and smiling indicates to go talk to random person well i have done that and no it gives them wrong impressions , then you feel awkward for going up there and saying hello then they whisper things like little school kids .
Did you catch news today ??
Did you hear about the earthquake in Haiti
What do you think about this petrol workers strike ?
Well i have nothing in common with hardly any these questions what so ever how is that making friends .
